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If we shadows have offended,
Think but this, and all is mended—
That you have but slumbered here
While these visions did appear.
And this weak and idle theme,
No more yielding but a dream,
Gentles, do not reprehend.
If you pardon, we will mend.


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Dreams


Title: Dreams
Fandom: Yami No Matsuei
Characters: Touda (Tsuzuki, Tenku and Rikugou mentioned)
Prompt: 004. Insides.
Word Count: 310.
Rating: PG.
Summary: If only he could stop remembering.
Author's Notes: What can I say about this? I don’t think this will surprise anyone who knows Touda’s story.


Most nights he found it hard to get to sleep. Sometimes he couldn't sleep at all. Those were his better nights for when he did fall asleep his dreams were all too often filled with the blood and screams of his victims, the terror that had been the last great war and the guilt he could never shake even when awake.

Most nights screams woke him. His own rather than those of the dead, though.

Alone in the dark he could see the faces of the dead more clearly than he'd ever seen them, though he'd never know for sure whether they were the spirits of the dead come to haunt him, or just own his mind's creations called fourth by his conscience.

Tsuzuki had insisted that they were the later, that he only needed to control his nightmares to banish them. He might as well try to control the sun and moon.

Still Tsuzuki might be right for some of the faces he saw in his dreams he knew were still alive. At least he knew so when he was awake. Once he fell asleep the dreams were the only thing that seemed real.

At least Tsuzuki hadn't told anyone, though Touda suspected that both Tenku and Rikugou knew.

Tenku would have had to be blind and deaf to not notice in all the years Touda'd been imprisoned inside him, though there was a chance that the palace had never guessed what the dreams were about.

With Rikugou it was a different matter. As far as Touda knew he'd never been there to witness one of his nightmares. Rationally Touda was convinced that the seer had no way of knowing, but when he looked at you with those knowing eyes.

Neither shiki had ever addressed the topic, but still it worried Touda. He did not want them to know.






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