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Burned Stones


Title: Burned Stones
Fandom: Yami No Matsuei
Characters: Touda, Tsuzuki
Prompt: 046. Star.
Word Count: 753.
Rating: G
Summary: Some things take time.
Author's Notes: This might be the most edited piece I've ever written. The first draft consisted only of the first half of the story, the second had both, then I realised I needed to change the time settings and finally I fiddled with the POV a little.


"A rock?" Touda stared at his new master's treasure in confusion.

"Well yes, it's a rock," Tsuzuki admitted. "But a very special rock."

It didn't look special to Touda. It looked like a rock that had been melted by his fire and then cooled down again. A somehow liquid look with no sharp edges. In nature you got rounded rocks in riverbeds where the flow of the water shaped them. Maybe this was an unusual river shaped rock?

He hoped it was, at least. For some reason he didn't like the idea of Tsuzuki taking souvenirs from places he'd burned. It made him uneasy, though he couldn't have said why.

"It's a fallen star," Tsuzuki explained.

Touda looked up at the sky. "Stars don't fall and they don't look like stones. They're huge balls of burning gas."

Too late he remembered that one shouldn't contradict one's master. It had been too long since he'd last had one and Tsuzuki was still too new. He wondered whether he'd be sent back to his cell right away.

But Tsuzuki only sighed. "Okay, it's a meteor," he admitted. "People just call them fallen stars, because it's more poetic."

Touda shook his head. "They aren't stars. They're just bits of stone. Burned stone."

He didn't know why it bothered him so much. Maybe it had something to do with the similarity with the burned stones he himself produced, but that didn't make sense. They were still just burned stones.

"I could make you a stone that looks just like it," he said after a long pause. "I could even make it star shaped."

"That'd be pretty," Tsuzuki smiled at him.

"Should I?" He regretted mentioning it now, but Tsuzuki owned him.

Tsuzuki looked at him. "Do you want to?"

"No."

"Then I don't want one," Tsuzuki said and slipped his meteor back into his pocket.



Many decades later on a rather depressing birthday Tsuzuki fled to GenSouKai for company. Tatsumi was having a bad day and keeping all the other shinigami rushing about hectically. Everybody was grumpy and nobody seemed to want Tsuzuki around.

So yes, he admitted that his latest case had resulted in a little more damage than had been strictly necessary, but he'd been working with a complete stranger instead of the partner he'd gotten used to over many years. He'd simply forgotten that Hisoka was no longer there to cover his back and his new partner wasn't able to predict his moves, yet. The only way he'd seen to make up for the error was by brute force, though in hindsight throwing five shiki at his opponents had been overkill. It had seemed like a good idea at the time, though. Was that really reason enough to forget his birthday?

Of course for the last two or three decades it had usually been Hisoka who'd organised the party. With him so recently passed on it was understandable that nobody had remembered, but that didn't mean it didn't hurt.

Tsuzuki desperately needed something to distract him from the fact that his partner and best friend had left him. Today that loss hurt more than ever before.

At least he had his shiki, his oldest friends who'd seen so many partners come and go. He could rely on them and even though they hadn't expected a visit on this of all days they quickly organised a party that had everything he could desire.

The party was nearly over by the time he got a chance to talk to Touda. Tsuzuki knew that the hellfire serpent didn't feel comfortable at such social events and usually just made a short appearance, a clumsy attempt at politeness, before disappearing to some quiet retreat. It could be quite hard to find him on such occasions.

This time however Touda had stayed, hanging around the edges of the party and looking miserable. Tsuzuki concluded that that meant that Touda needed to talk to him.

But when the shinigami finally managed to extricate himself from the more social group that had formed around him and walk over to the serpent, Touda just pressed a wrapped package into his hand.

"I felt like making this and thought you might like to have it," he explained and left quickly.

Puzzled Tsuzuki unwrapped the gift hoping that it would explain the remark and it did. Touda had given him a heavy black stone in the shape of a star and if it wasn't quite symmetrical that only made it more beautiful in Tsuzuki's eyes.






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