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Title: Changes
Fandom: Yami No Matsuei
Characters: Touda, Kijin, Tenkou, SohRyu
Prompt: 082. If.
Word Count: 487.
Rating: G
Summary: Tenkou is looking for inspiration for her homework.
Author's Notes: I was going to do an AU story for this, but when I started to think about what I could change I got this idea instead.

"Hey Kijin," Tenkou asked suddenly in the middle of dinner. "If you could change one thing about your life, what would you choose?"

"Do you mean changing the way I live now, or going back in time and fixing a mistake I made in the past?" Kijin asked.

"Anything," said Tenkou. "It could be something you never had any control over, like ... giving yourself another sibling. The only rule is that it can be only one change."

Kijin thought about it. "I suppose I'd go back to last year and invite the new girl to my birthday party. Back then I forgot, because I hardly knew her and now she thinks I don't like her. Maybe if I'd invited her we could have been friends."

"That's a good idea," Tenkou agreed. "But it won't help me with my homework. I don't have a classmate I didn't invite to my birthday party."

"You could change something else," SohRyu reminded her. "If I could change something about my life, I'd bring the Golden Emperor back. Then I'd have a lot more spare time to spend with you two."

Tenkou shook her head. "I don't want the Golden Emperor. I don't even know him. How about you, Touda? What would you change?"

It was the logical next step in the conversation and he really shouldn't have been surprised, but the question still caught him completely unprepared.

What would he change about his life? At first glance it looked like an easy choice. He would have preferred not to have been imprisoned for centuries. But if he'd just not have been imprisoned, the others would still hate him for being a mass murderer. If he hadn't flipped out and killed all those people, he wouldn't have been imprisoned or lost all his friends. He wouldn't want to be the kind of person who'd put up with the things that had happened back then, though.

Maybe if there'd never been a war, but then he'd never have realised the truth about the Golden Emperor. It had been a painful lesson, but better than to continue to admire a monster.

Perhaps, if he'd never come to GenSouKai and never met any of them in the first place, but then he'd have had nowhere to go when he'd run away and he couldn't have stayed with the master who'd sold his mother.

If his mother had never been sold, he might have stayed, but then they'd both still be slaves of a cruel and abusive master. No, if he really had one wish free to alter his fate, Touda would choose to never have been born. That wasn't something one ought to tell a sweet innocent little girl like Tenkou who had no idea what a cruel and terrible place the world could be, though.

"I suppose I'd change my hair colour," he said. "I always thought I should have had black hair."

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