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Title: Scared
Fandom: Yami No Matsuei
Characters: Touda, Kijin
Prompt: 098. Writer's Choice.
Word Count: 294.
Rating: G
Summary: Kijin is looking for advice on being a father.
Author's Notes: Yes, Kijin knows Touda knows a lot about this topic, but Touda himself doesn't realise it. Besides he's not too happy with Kijin's behaviour towards Daiya.

"I'm scared," said Kijin when Touda finally found him sitting behind the garden shed.

"Of the wedding?" Touda asked. He'd never married himself, so he didn't really understand it, but he'd heard that a lot of people got scared before their weddings and Kijin was very young to get married and didn't even love the girl.

"No," Kijin said, then after a moment: "Yes, that too, but I'm more scared of the birth."

"The birth?" Was that a good sign? It sounded almost as if he did love Daiya after all, or at least cared for her wellbeing.

"Well, what happens afterwards, to be exact. I mean, am I not much too young for this? I have no idea how to be a father."

No, luck for poor Daija after all.

"I don't know either," he admitted. "I've never had any children. You could ask Daiya, though." And at least bond a little.

"She's never been a mother before either," Kijin pointed out.

"No, but she's been reading books about it and talking to her parents."

"Hares," Kijin said with more disdain than even SohRyu had ever managed to put into the word.

"Hares tend to have lots of children," Touda tried to remind him. "I'm sure they know a lot about raising them."

"I'm not going to ask for help from a bunch of rat-faced, twitchy-nosed cowards."

He hadn't been picky about that when he'd fathered the baby.

"At least have a look in the library then. If there are books about how to be a mother, there are probably ones about being a father as well."

Kijin frowned at him, but got up to return to the palace anyway.

"I hate books," Touda heard him mumble just before he disappeared from sight.

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